The voice of silence

I was quite talkative as a child. I remember Mom saying that my neighbours used to sense my presence from quite a distance only through my blabbering. But as time passed, I became more and more quite. Perhaps it was my idea of maturity. Perhaps situations changed me. Perhaps I felt more and more disconnected from the world. I don't know why it happened but it did happen. My voice was silenced. For a long time I loathed it. I loathed myself. I tried my best to be a chatterer as everyone around me was. But it just didn't happen. But after 23 years of existence, I realized that this silence has actually done good to me. 

I'm not here to talk whether we should be taciturn or a loquacious. It's human nature and what I perceive as good may not be working for others. You cannot change it, so you have to embrace it. 

But don't you think there are times when silence is actually the solution? When silence is actually the voice?

Finding solitude is hard in today's world. Society has trained us to think that being alone is bad. "We live in a society, we have to be in good terms with everyone". Quite cliché, isn't it. But let's face it. Which part of the day do we like the most? For most of us, it's going to be bed-time. More so, the period before it. When we are done with the day, with our responsibilities and it's time to rest our souls. When we have no-one else but us. We often indulge in deep thoughts before sleep overtakes us. If utilized properly, it's a period of introspection. Through out the day, our voice gets lost among the many voices. But during that silence, we hear our own voice. We hear our soul, and the voice of soul is the voice of God Himself: as Lord Krishna said, 

daṇḍo damayatām asmi nītir asmi jigīṣhatām

maunaṁ chaivāsmi guhyānāṁ jñānaṁ jñānavatām aham.

Silence is often apprehended to be passive. But it actually is the highest form of activity. Silence is clarity. Silence is unfathomable strength. It shows that external factors doesn't control our inner self. Silence is mystery. You will never know what's going on inside a person when he or she goes silent. 

Silence can be pain. It is your vulnerability. Sometimes you choose to keep your emotions to yourselves knowing that you will not be able to handle their reactions. In fear of losing one bond, you refrain from mellowing another. 

Silence can be confusion. You do not know whether your words will solve the situation or will worsen it. Sometimes, it is the best answer for people who doesn't care. 

Silence can be love. Watching them in silence, worrying about them in silence, thinking about them in silence is the purest form of love. A love that does not show-off. A love that is meant for you. Not for anyone else, not even for them. It is hard to maintain love when divided. When it's with you wholly, you have full control over it.

Silence is devotion. When relationships end, being silent about the whole thing and not blabbing about it or demeaning the other person in front of everyone is a sign of reverence, faithfulness and dedication.

Silence is suffering. There is paramount pain parasiting their soul when people go silent abruptly. A thousand thoughts goes on inside, none comes out.

Silence is more scary than words. As long as they speak, impudent or modest, you know they are there. When they stop talking, you have lost them.

There are times when silence chooses us. There are times when we choose silence.

Have the maturity to sometimes know that silence is more powerful than having the last word.” ~Thema Davis

All of us must have gone through extreme levels of dispute at some point of time. Flinging an insult is often a reflection of disturbed souls. It is their unrest and disturbance speaking. Maturity is letting some words pass by without affecting you. You don't have to defend yourself if you know you are right. Even if you are wrong, arguing at that time won't change their perception. It will only worsen it. Silence is channeling your calm in a heated moment. 

Silence is a moment of Zen, where positivity and negativity exist together. It is the power to not let a disturbance cause disturbance in your mind. It takes true strength to hold back your tongue and to avoid resonating negativity.

Of course, silence is not about ignoring the problem all together. If you were wrong, it is okay to acknowledge and apologize. You should know that loved ones do not speak rough words intentionally. They are venting out their insecurities and disorders and it's our duty to not let them suffer because of us again. They might not understand you during the heated moment, but discussing about it calmly later on will definitely lead to a solution. 

Sometimes when the other person is being intentionally hurtful, fighting because they have to, you always have the choice to remain silent and back off altogether. Silence is usually the best response. 

If your silence is not enough, your words never were. 

Words are heavy. They can be twisted into any shape. People say words which they never mean. People say "sorry" for the sake of it. "I love you" is becoming more of a trend now. If silence is ignorance, then ignorance is bliss. 

Words are often liars. Silence is truthful. 

As I said, no-one can be absolutely correct. People know best how to handle situations only they have faced. Life is about embracing yourselves. Embrace your flaws, which can be perfection in somebody else's eyes.

Stop living according to norms. You are not perfect. You don't have to be.

If black is for sinners and white is for saints, proudly embrace gray.